I have been thyroid sick for quite a while. I don’t know what’s wrong. It’s been affecting my work. I’ve been constantly calling in or being sent home when census is low. At home, I just lie down and do nothing but sleep. My period has been longer than normal and the worse part, depression.
I know it’s just a clinical depression, something that is thyroid-related. But it’s just sucking all of my energy. I’ve lost the interest in doing the things I love, developed a severe anxiety every time I go to work, and the feeling of hopelessness. Nobody seems to understand, even my closest co-workers. It’s just my thyroid. Once the levels are back to normal, I’ll be okay.
But the thing is, I went to the Doctor, told him I feel worse than ever, had my blood test done and it came back normal, like I’m just making up all of my symptoms. The Doctor, nonetheless, increased my Synthroid from 112 mcg to 125 mcg.
The Nurse called me to tell me about my lab result.
Nurse: “Your thyroid levels are normal. You should continue taking your thyroid medication and please see an OB-GYN regarding your prolonged menstrual period because that is not thyroid-related.”
Me: “But my period already stopped when I started taking the higher dose of Synthroid. So it’s not a case for OB.”
Nurse: “No, your thyroid levels are normal. It’s not thyroid-related. You should go see your OB.”
Didn’t she just hear what I said? My period stopped after taking the higher dose Synthroid. Why would I see an OB-GYN when my period has already been taken care of? Didn’t she know that hypothyroidism can cause irregular or prolonged menstrual period? Does she even know anything about the endocrine system? Sometimes I wonder if hypothyroid patients know more than Doctors and Nurses. I’m a Nurse and my knowledge about hypothyroidism was just limited until I had the disease.
I started checking out my FB and IG, start uploading pictures on IG about how I feel; I stopped doing yoga and meditation; I stopped waking up at 4:30am; I started eating a lot and gaining more weight. I’m a mess.
It’s hard to motivate yourself when your hormones are not cooperating. I even asked to be transferred to a less stressful work environment. But even if I’m already in a less stressful environment, I still go home totally exhausted and ready to sleep.
I needed to write down my thoughts and see how I’m thinking. Maybe it will motivate me to fight my illness and win this battle.